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I am thankful for ... (Thankful Thursday XVI)

started this blog post a LONG time ago and just now finished editing...

my God who loves me and does for me more than I will ever know.

There are children in China studying until 11pm, 12pm, 1am completing assignments and they hate life.  They hate it so much, they think, if they die, they won't have to do homework.  That's how much homework they're doing, and they are serious.

3 kids committed suicide thinking about this...

HOW SAD.......... SAD isn't enough to describe the situation.

Sit and think (because you can't stand and not sit back down)... let your tears flow...
You are a young child
less than 12 years old
not understanding life
no God
no purpose;
sure you're done with Algebra, Geometry, and Chemistry,
but it's all futile;
all you ever see is homework
and you can honestly say,
"I want to die."

Can you even bring yourself to a point where you want to DIE because you don't want to do homework?  DIE before living more than a decade?  DIE when you haven't loved? DIE and not know what comes after?  DIE and never see the light of the sun again?  DIE without a purpose?  DIE because you can't keep on?

Do you realize the LIFE we have in CHRIST? The LOVE?  The LIGHT... there is no darkness in Him.

While I do not feel warm bright sun rays on my face every moment in my life, I know I have never felt so desperate and hopeless.

My God is SO GOOD.  There are tears in my eyes now.  He has protected me from what I didn't even know could harm me.   His love is so complete and unconditional.  I sin daily, numerous times, and still he loves me.  And it's not the mushy or superficial type that we see outwardly.  It's God making your life so perfect, you don't even know it's perfect, until you see how messed up people's lives can get!!  You don't know what God has protected you from, until you see how Satan has wreaked havoc in the lives of others.



~CJ
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