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Simplified Decisions

I got another letter in the mail earlier today, this time from Moore (South Carolina business school).

My hunches are scarily frequently accurate.  I wasn't upset, but I knew it wasn't going to be joyous news.  Bluntly, I was rejected again.

I was tempted to get bummed, but I pushed that feeling aside.

The reason being, it's what my Mother wanted.  Let me explain before you think my Mother is either delirious or cruel.

Ever since I made the decision to get an MBA and picked out a couple schools to attend, Mother dear started praying God would only open 1 door and close all others.

She didn't tell me.  So, I really wondered why she wasn't as sad as I expected her to be when we found out I had been rejected from Babson and Duke. (My Mother really, really, really wanted me to go to Duke for several reasons).

It's pretty apparent that I will be going to Acton School of Business now.  I'm technically still waiting to hear from Carnegie Mellon, but since Acton was the main reason I started MBA researched and my personal top choice, I'm happy.  Besides, I've already sent in my Statement of Intent to Acton.

Honestly, I was at first upset that my mother prayed her prayer.  No, not upset at her praying.  I was probably somewhat mad that God had answered her the way He had.  I don't like being rejected.  But the more I think about it, the more glad I am that God made the decision easier for me.  It's ridiculous how stupid I can get when I think I know what's good for me.  Evidently, my Mother and my heavenly Father are wiser than I am.

I do have a bunch of fun things coming up this summer, that I'll list in another post, since this one got lengthy too quickly.  I know, I know, I still need to post Stone Mountain pics.

Everyone enjoy the brief return to chilly spring before we toast again!
CJ~
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  1. MacMeisterApril 10, 2012 at 5:21 PM

    I'm happy that the decision is easy now! I'm glad you've been able to gain a proper perspective on the situation. Have fun going back to school! :-)

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    1. Caravyn JazminApril 10, 2012 at 5:32 PM

      All glory to God! YAY!! SCHOOL!! Funny to think about how excited I am about that.

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  2. EssieApril 10, 2012 at 6:08 PM

    Thanks for the updates and for sharing your thoughts... I've been praying for you frequently, and it makes me happy to see you truly trusting Jesus. He has this whole thing figured out! :)

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    1. Caravyn JazminApril 10, 2012 at 6:50 PM

      Aww, thank you for your encouragement; your prayers are greatly appreciated as well. I miss you! *hugs*

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